I'm finding myself rather frustrated right now. I feel so lazy and yet I have things to do. I just don't want to do them. Last night, I plopped myself in front of the TV and figured I'd just watch something for a few minutes. Then I got into the funk and didn't get up again until really late. TV last night was mindless and boring - yet I couldn't get out from under it.
I still feel better than I did before but there's no question the spectre of depression is still there. My family wants to know about it and the sessions I'm attending but I really don't want to go into detail with them. Some of the depression is based on things they did or didn't do in the past. I just get angry or furious even when I start to think about it.
To me, inertia is the worst thing about depression - that and total lack of motivation. I don't want to do anything yet I'm not happy not doing anything. What a weird place to be.
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