Setting a Goal for Myself

I hate boredom. I hate inertia. I hate lack of initiative. I hate feeling dull. I hate feeling like life is just passing me by in a flash. I hate procrastination. I hate feeling lackluster. I hate not being stimulated. There are times when I feel like my only purpose in life is to be a piece of moving organic material drifting like a dry leaf in the wind. Seriously. I hate those feelings.

So....

One of the ideas that has come out of my sessions with the behavioral therapist is to set goals for things that I want to do. I've been so bored at my job and in life in general that I haven't really cared. Well, after the last session (and having considered this before) I called up the local university and found out that I can get a Masters Degree within 2 years of night school.

I couldn't believe how JAZZED I felt at that idea. 30 units and I've got a MBA (I've already got a BS in Marketing). That is really cool. Setting personal goals and going for them does help during a time of tedium and boredom. It makes me feel that I'm accomplishing something for myself rather than just, well, existing.

Once I made the decision, I felt quite giddy and excited - something I haven't felt in a long time so I definitely know this is a good decision. I investigated what I needed to do before hand. There is a rather difficult test (called the GMAT) that I need to take. Since I can't abide any math that contains fractions, I'm going to need to study hard as I have quickly forgotten all those classes (on purpose!).

This will primarily mean that I will focus on something outside myself but is a positive step FOR me. We'll see how it goes. Two years of night school beats the heck out of 11 years for the BS. I still shake my head in disbelief when I think about it but I do remember that even though the 11 years was tedious, it still was a positive goal to shoot for. And I actually accomplished it!

Let's see how far this will help me out of my funk.